ok!!! so may be u r going to wonder...(if nebody at all reads this....though i will assume somebody does) y now??? like is she out of her mind or something??? kaj nei kheye deye??? well frst of all.....amar apatoto sotti e kheye deye kaj nei....exams r over n m dying to do sumthing new.....n moreover m a loner with very few friends....and very low social skills....i find it difficult communicating with others....so there r things i need to talk about....n i just cant find the two eyed clear brained homosapien to talk to.....so i better write it down here in the hope that sum body comes across this blog and nods his or her head up and down while reading this almost understanding wat i want to say
    well.....being the messy person i am....almost forgot to introduce my self....so...hi!! m a bespectacled nerd of a girl....with my nose into books the whole day and pretending that i love it... According to my mom there is a absolute beautiful...mindfucking.....diamond of a face hidden behind the many layers of extra chin...and the insanely thick glasses.....i have classic shinchan eyebrows....a healthy...(read OTT) appetite...and a knack for fashion desinging....thoush i ud never say that aloud....else mom might kill me...(ato porasona kore tailor hote chas!!!!!!)...i like singing bollywood absolute jhinchak songs....kinda hate english music.....love old bengali and hindi songs too....and yah....i love reading and writing poetry.....
    if u ask me about the people in my life .....then there is my sobjanta, scary, bossy mom...whom i love....inspite of the fact that i can never understand her....neither can she understand me.....then there is kabir (blush blush!!)....my tushyfaced teddy bear of a boy friend....always standing beside me....and in a 2 year long battle with my hitler mother......there is putush....my li'l pet....ohh...almost forgot....dad is also there....though we do not talk much....cuz we do not get time for each other.....and wen we do.... we talk a lot telepathecally....keeping uncomfortable silence the medium between us...
   ok...so wat do i want to talk about??? there are so many things actually!!!!! havent u ever felt the hypocrisy in our lives....the odd difference between the notion of right and wrong in various spheres????? how easily goodness becomes bokamo.....how easily cheating becomes chalaki???how easily the adjectives smart and greedy merge with each other??? how the victim becomes the guilty....and the guilty becomes "bechara"??? may be for many of you it has been easy.....this transition from the idealistic world of books to that of the real one.....but not for me.....i have been trapped so long in the pages that when i was pushed to face the reality.... i stand alone.....defeated and lost.....i dont kno wats wrong wats right.....everything i have read till now seems wrong.....i am a duffer ...an idiot now .....and i thot books made me smarter...wait....smart has two definitions......i mean to say i am smart in a way books define samrtness...not in a way my mom....or the society does....
  signing off now....plz do think about this...(if u at all exist....though i wud assume that u do)....tada